Peaches Geldof Wrote of 'Bliss' Before Death

Peaches Geldof's death remains a mystery: A post-mortem examination was inconclusive, police say, so we still have no cause of death. The next step: toxicology tests, which could take several weeks, the BBC reports. Yesterday, Mother&Baby published Geldof's final column; she started working there earlier this year. In it, Geldof says she was "lost in a haze of youth and no responsibilities" before having her two sons, and that her children saved her from an "existence ... of pure apathy." But, she noted, motherhood cost her many of her friends.

"Once I couldn’t go out, due to the aforementioned little wailers, they didn’t want to know. The idea that I didn’t want a nanny didn’t seem to register, nor that doing night feeds and waking up at 6am doesn’t factor in well with a wine-soaked dinner," she wrote. "It hurt me. I felt alienated and abandoned. Had I made a mistake?" But she soon realized, while her sons were snuggling with her in bed, that none of that mattered. "I had the perfect life—two beautiful babies who loved me more than anything. It was, and is, bliss." And her real friends, she wrote, provided her with the occasional night out: "So, I’ve achieved a sort of perfect balance. Right now life is good." (More Peaches Geldof stories.)